Well, 2016 has come and gone!! It has been one hell of a year. One I definitely want to forget.
It began the year with a major heart condition that was found. On Jan 25th I underwent a stent placement in my inferior vena cava. I feel better now, but that day my wife was detained by security at Vanderbilt and my daughter was the one that reported her. That began the downhill slide for our relationship with Heather.
Heather and the boys moved next to Ricky and Diane and life hasn't been the same since that time. We didn't get to see the boys as much and we were never allowed to come over there to see them.
Then Christmas came around, Heather refused to celebrate Christmas with us on our day off, which was Christmas Eve, because she was doing Christmas with Ricky and Diane. She chose them over us.
One thing lead to another, words were exchanged and now we are not allowed to see our grandsons. In addition to that, Lisa jumped on board with Heather and refuses us let us see Kaleigh.
So now we have yet to see our grandkids since before Thanksgiving. We did not get to see them at Christmas and we still have not gotten to give them their Christmas presents. What kind of mother and father prevent grandparents from give presents to their grandchildren.
So 2016 has sucked. I hope 2017 is much better. I miss my boys so much!!
William, Jayson and Kaleigh...Poppa and Mimi love you to the moon and back!!
Poppa
Saturday, December 31, 2016
Monday, December 26, 2016
Happy Birthday William...
William,
Nine years ago you came into our lives. You were our first grandchild and Mimi and I couldn't have been happier. We were so excited to have a grandson. We lived in the big house at that time and you got to come over. We taught you how to swim and Tyler taught you how to go up and down the stairs.
You love to play in Isaac and Izzy's food bowls and you would act like a puppy and get down on all fours and drink out of the bowl with your tongue. It was so funny.
Anyway, today is your birthday, we don't get to see you today. We miss you so much. We weren't invited to your birthday party and are not being allow to give you a birthday present.
It will be waiting on you, whenever you mother and father allow your to see us.
Always remember, I love you to the moon and back...or as you say, to Pluto and back!!
Poppa
Nine years ago you came into our lives. You were our first grandchild and Mimi and I couldn't have been happier. We were so excited to have a grandson. We lived in the big house at that time and you got to come over. We taught you how to swim and Tyler taught you how to go up and down the stairs.
You love to play in Isaac and Izzy's food bowls and you would act like a puppy and get down on all fours and drink out of the bowl with your tongue. It was so funny.
Anyway, today is your birthday, we don't get to see you today. We miss you so much. We weren't invited to your birthday party and are not being allow to give you a birthday present.
It will be waiting on you, whenever you mother and father allow your to see us.
Always remember, I love you to the moon and back...or as you say, to Pluto and back!!
Poppa
Saturday, December 24, 2016
Or was it....
Christmas was cancelled...or was it?
It seems that since Papa Stutts stood up and said that we could come to Christmas, the sneakiness and pettiness got even greater.
So everyone cancelled on Christmas, Heather, Lisa and Tonya all said they weren't coming. But did they really?
They just changed the venue. Now they are all going to Mike and Leah's house for Christmas this morning. Needless to say, they didn't invite us or Papa Stutts.
Such a hateful family, I can't imagine hating someone so much you won't allow them to come to Christmas.
Anyway, I sent the grand kids blankets and pictures with Tyler and told him to hug them and let them know Mimi and Poppa loved them to the moon and back!!
Merry Christmas!
Poppa
It seems that since Papa Stutts stood up and said that we could come to Christmas, the sneakiness and pettiness got even greater.
So everyone cancelled on Christmas, Heather, Lisa and Tonya all said they weren't coming. But did they really?
They just changed the venue. Now they are all going to Mike and Leah's house for Christmas this morning. Needless to say, they didn't invite us or Papa Stutts.
Such a hateful family, I can't imagine hating someone so much you won't allow them to come to Christmas.
Anyway, I sent the grand kids blankets and pictures with Tyler and told him to hug them and let them know Mimi and Poppa loved them to the moon and back!!
Merry Christmas!
Poppa
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Friday, December 23, 2016
Christmas cancelled...
So Papa Stutts (H.L.) finally stood up and said something about Lynn and I not being invited to Christmas. He sent a text to everyone and told them that EVERYONE was welcome at Christmas at the cabin and those who didn't want to come, didn't have too, but he was not going to tell anyone they couldn't come.
Apparently, that didn't go over so well. Heather, Lisa and Tonya all said that they would not be there if Lynn and I were coming. Wow, just wow!! Who does that, who does not want their family around at Christmas, even if you are fighting. Just ridiculous!!
Needless to say, Nana has decided to cancel the cabin since they weren't coming now. We asked her why, because Lynn, Tyler, Gracie and I were coming, but we got no response.
It has now just become petty, childless garbage. And all we are doing is punishing 3 small children who miss their Mimi and Poppa! Yesterday I was so down and depressed about it, I couldn't sleep, snapped at everyone at work and just generally had a bad day!!
I miss you boys to the moon and back, Poppa Loves You!!
Apparently, that didn't go over so well. Heather, Lisa and Tonya all said that they would not be there if Lynn and I were coming. Wow, just wow!! Who does that, who does not want their family around at Christmas, even if you are fighting. Just ridiculous!!
Needless to say, Nana has decided to cancel the cabin since they weren't coming now. We asked her why, because Lynn, Tyler, Gracie and I were coming, but we got no response.
It has now just become petty, childless garbage. And all we are doing is punishing 3 small children who miss their Mimi and Poppa! Yesterday I was so down and depressed about it, I couldn't sleep, snapped at everyone at work and just generally had a bad day!!
I miss you boys to the moon and back, Poppa Loves You!!
Thursday, December 22, 2016
Christmas frustrations...
William, Jayson and Kaliegh
So I started my work week back today. My week off has been hard, I usually get to see you guys at least one day on my week off. But not this week. Your mothers have kept you from us again.
It is even to the point that Lisa, who is not involved in this fight, has decided to stand with Heather and not let us see Kaliegh as well. She has even gone to the point that she will not come over for Christmas, nor will she let us give Kaliegh her Christmas present. She did say that we could send your Christmas presents with Tyler and she would give them to you. I just don't see that as being fair. Why should we not be able to watch our grandchild open her Christmas presents.
We will also not be allowed to see William or Jayson. We can't even send your presents to you. I miss you boys so much that my heart hurts. I cry for you nightly.
I sent Nana and Papa Stutts a text this week to see if they could help with this situation. They basically told us that they could not help and that we were NOT invited to Christmas at the cabin. Who would not allow their daughter to come to the family Christmas?
So Mimi and I went and saw a counselor today. They believe that Heather and Lisa are using you children to try and manipulate and control us. They believe that it is nothing but vindictive. We were told to focus on God and focus on what we could control. So that is what we are trying to do.
Now Tyler, our son, has joined in with the crowd. He and his girlfriend are going to spend the night at the cabin and wake up there Christmas Eve morning. This is in direct violation of what we have asked him to do. We have asked him not to have any contact with Heather or Lisa. But he continues to defy us. I know that his has been put in the middle, but even though he is 18, he still lives in my house. These are our rules and he does not want to follow them.
In life there are consequences to ever choice you make. If Tyler choses to interact with Heather and Lisa after we have expressed out wishes, then he can suffer the consequences. It is a long walk to the cabin with no truck especially when you have no phone to call anyone for a ride. Just my opinion.
It has been a very frustrating week. Mimi and I have decided to wrap all of your presents and keep the Christmas tree up until our grandchildren are allowed to have their presents. It may be weird having a Christmas tree up in March or July, but that will be your mothers choice.
We have complied to their demands, we have seen a counselor, but we still have yet to see you guys. We were not invited to your Christmas play and did not get to see you dressed up as Star Wars heros.
I love your guys to the moon and back!!
Poppa
So I started my work week back today. My week off has been hard, I usually get to see you guys at least one day on my week off. But not this week. Your mothers have kept you from us again.
It is even to the point that Lisa, who is not involved in this fight, has decided to stand with Heather and not let us see Kaliegh as well. She has even gone to the point that she will not come over for Christmas, nor will she let us give Kaliegh her Christmas present. She did say that we could send your Christmas presents with Tyler and she would give them to you. I just don't see that as being fair. Why should we not be able to watch our grandchild open her Christmas presents.
We will also not be allowed to see William or Jayson. We can't even send your presents to you. I miss you boys so much that my heart hurts. I cry for you nightly.
I sent Nana and Papa Stutts a text this week to see if they could help with this situation. They basically told us that they could not help and that we were NOT invited to Christmas at the cabin. Who would not allow their daughter to come to the family Christmas?
So Mimi and I went and saw a counselor today. They believe that Heather and Lisa are using you children to try and manipulate and control us. They believe that it is nothing but vindictive. We were told to focus on God and focus on what we could control. So that is what we are trying to do.
Now Tyler, our son, has joined in with the crowd. He and his girlfriend are going to spend the night at the cabin and wake up there Christmas Eve morning. This is in direct violation of what we have asked him to do. We have asked him not to have any contact with Heather or Lisa. But he continues to defy us. I know that his has been put in the middle, but even though he is 18, he still lives in my house. These are our rules and he does not want to follow them.
In life there are consequences to ever choice you make. If Tyler choses to interact with Heather and Lisa after we have expressed out wishes, then he can suffer the consequences. It is a long walk to the cabin with no truck especially when you have no phone to call anyone for a ride. Just my opinion.
It has been a very frustrating week. Mimi and I have decided to wrap all of your presents and keep the Christmas tree up until our grandchildren are allowed to have their presents. It may be weird having a Christmas tree up in March or July, but that will be your mothers choice.
We have complied to their demands, we have seen a counselor, but we still have yet to see you guys. We were not invited to your Christmas play and did not get to see you dressed up as Star Wars heros.
I love your guys to the moon and back!!
Poppa
Sunday, December 18, 2016
Heather and Lisa...
My daughters,
15 years ago you came into my life. I was so happy. I had met the woman of my dreams and she had three wonderful kids.
Heather, you were a teenager and looked just like your mom, so beautiful. Lisa, you were a preteen and my little Lisa-bug.
My family was my world. I had gotten everything that I wished for, a woman that loved me and three great kids.
I tried to be a Dad to you, but Heather didn't seem to want that, Lisa tried but still didn't see me as that. I never tried to impose on you, just be there for you and love you. All I ever wanted was your love back, but you could never quite give me that in return.
We had a falling out, you disobeyed your mom right before our cruise and you left the house and ran away. It got out of hand and y'all moved out. You refused to submit to your mothers authority.
We moved on and focused on Tyler. You were in and out of our lives, mainly when you wanted or needed something.
Mom and I focused on God and Tyler. But there was still a piece missing in my heart. I felt like God wanted us to adopt a little girl from Vietnam. We began the process and all was well. We named her Olivia and began writing a journal to her.
We took all the classes, paid all the fees, filled out all the documents and it was going well. Then came the home visit. No problems there, but they wanted to talk to you girls.
IMMEDIATELY, the adoption was off. I don't know what you guys said or did. But I lost Olivia because of you!
What can I say, you got your revenge. I am not sure what I ever did to you but I don't know why you hate me so!!
Fast forward to 2016. Your both married and have children. William is 8, Jayson is 4 and Kaliegh is 2. I love these three babies like crazy. I can't imagine my life without them.
But you and your mother have had a falling out again. I believe our family is broken. I have tried to hold it together for years, but you always find a reason to hate us. Mom has done the best she could to raise you and provide for you. She made some bad decisions growing up and raising you, but you seem to keep holding against her and me. We are very outspoken and have hurt some feelings with our opinions. But they are our feelings and we just want you to love us for who we are. But you can't seem to accept us.
So now you have taken something from me again. You have taken my grandkids from me. You are holding them hostage over our head and keeping us from seeing them. William, Jayson and Kaliegh have never done anything wrong and we have never harmed them in any way. We don't speak bad of you or anyone around them. All we do is love them and spoil them, for that I am guilty.
In a few days it will be Christmas. We have been told that we will it be allowed to see our grandkids. We will not be allowed to give them the presents we have bought for them or the blankets that I handmade for them.
What kind of person deprives their child of Christmas presents from their grandparents!! Do you hate us that much?
I have not seen my boys since before thanksgiving. By punishing me and your mom you are punishing children from love and attention of grandparents that love and adore them.
Once again, just like Olivia, you have taken three kids from me that I love; William, Jayson and Kaliegh.
If you hate Mom and I then so be it. But I am begging you, don't punish my precious grandkids for something they were not a part of.
All I ever wanted was to give you love and get love in return, but I guess that was too much to ask.
Please tell my babies that Poppa and Mimi love them to the moon and back!! I miss them so much my heart aches!!
Poppa
15 years ago you came into my life. I was so happy. I had met the woman of my dreams and she had three wonderful kids.
Heather, you were a teenager and looked just like your mom, so beautiful. Lisa, you were a preteen and my little Lisa-bug.
My family was my world. I had gotten everything that I wished for, a woman that loved me and three great kids.
I tried to be a Dad to you, but Heather didn't seem to want that, Lisa tried but still didn't see me as that. I never tried to impose on you, just be there for you and love you. All I ever wanted was your love back, but you could never quite give me that in return.
We had a falling out, you disobeyed your mom right before our cruise and you left the house and ran away. It got out of hand and y'all moved out. You refused to submit to your mothers authority.
We moved on and focused on Tyler. You were in and out of our lives, mainly when you wanted or needed something.
Mom and I focused on God and Tyler. But there was still a piece missing in my heart. I felt like God wanted us to adopt a little girl from Vietnam. We began the process and all was well. We named her Olivia and began writing a journal to her.
We took all the classes, paid all the fees, filled out all the documents and it was going well. Then came the home visit. No problems there, but they wanted to talk to you girls.
IMMEDIATELY, the adoption was off. I don't know what you guys said or did. But I lost Olivia because of you!
What can I say, you got your revenge. I am not sure what I ever did to you but I don't know why you hate me so!!
Fast forward to 2016. Your both married and have children. William is 8, Jayson is 4 and Kaliegh is 2. I love these three babies like crazy. I can't imagine my life without them.
But you and your mother have had a falling out again. I believe our family is broken. I have tried to hold it together for years, but you always find a reason to hate us. Mom has done the best she could to raise you and provide for you. She made some bad decisions growing up and raising you, but you seem to keep holding against her and me. We are very outspoken and have hurt some feelings with our opinions. But they are our feelings and we just want you to love us for who we are. But you can't seem to accept us.
So now you have taken something from me again. You have taken my grandkids from me. You are holding them hostage over our head and keeping us from seeing them. William, Jayson and Kaliegh have never done anything wrong and we have never harmed them in any way. We don't speak bad of you or anyone around them. All we do is love them and spoil them, for that I am guilty.
In a few days it will be Christmas. We have been told that we will it be allowed to see our grandkids. We will not be allowed to give them the presents we have bought for them or the blankets that I handmade for them.
What kind of person deprives their child of Christmas presents from their grandparents!! Do you hate us that much?
I have not seen my boys since before thanksgiving. By punishing me and your mom you are punishing children from love and attention of grandparents that love and adore them.
Once again, just like Olivia, you have taken three kids from me that I love; William, Jayson and Kaliegh.
If you hate Mom and I then so be it. But I am begging you, don't punish my precious grandkids for something they were not a part of.
All I ever wanted was to give you love and get love in return, but I guess that was too much to ask.
Please tell my babies that Poppa and Mimi love them to the moon and back!! I miss them so much my heart aches!!
Poppa
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Friday, December 16, 2016
My K-bug...
K-bug,
My beautiful grand-daughter, your mother, Lisa, informed us today that she will not be bring you to see us on Christmas. She also told us that we will not be allowed to give you your Christmas presents.
I just see something wrong with this. Our fight was never with Lisa, she was just filled with Heathers gossip. But she has chosen to listen to lies and keep you from us too.
We love you so much, I am sorry that it has come to this. Mimi and Poppa love you to the moon and back.
Poppa
Sent from my iPhone
My beautiful grand-daughter, your mother, Lisa, informed us today that she will not be bring you to see us on Christmas. She also told us that we will not be allowed to give you your Christmas presents.
I just see something wrong with this. Our fight was never with Lisa, she was just filled with Heathers gossip. But she has chosen to listen to lies and keep you from us too.
We love you so much, I am sorry that it has come to this. Mimi and Poppa love you to the moon and back.
Poppa
Sent from my iPhone
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Thursday, December 15, 2016
A day at Vanderbilt...
Lucy and I went to Vanderbilt today for her contact lens appointment. She has had to get special hybrid contacts made to fit her eye due to her previous eye surgery. Never before has she been able to see better that 20/200 even with glasses.
The hybrid contacts were expensive and they had to be special made, but they finally came in.
So we made the trip to Vanderbilt Eye Institute to get them today. She was able to get them in and out fairly easily and Dr Deepa said the fit was good. She could see with them down to 20/25 in the left eye and 20/50 in the right eye. Dr. Deepa said we could correct her vision even further in a month.
I was happy she was finally able to see. She is still struggling with the second eye drops. They really burn and it was worse after she removed her contacts.
Praying for healing of her eyes and comfort to her with the drops.
But on another note, Papaw Stutts spoke to Heather today about William and Jayson's Christmas. He thinks she will let us give them their Christmas presents but we cannot get Jayson a puppy. That makes me sad because that was all he asked me for was a puppy of his very own.
William and Jayson, poppa and Mimi would get you a puppy if your Mom and Dad would let you have it but I am sorry, they said NO.
Hopefully we will get to see you for Christmas and be able to give you your presents. We love you to the moon and back!!
Poppa
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Tuesday, December 13, 2016
Proud of you Tyman...
Yesterday, my son, Tyler received his NAEMT certification in the mail. So very proud of him. He seems to be following in his mother and my footstep.
I obtained my EMT when I was 16 years old at Bristol Life Saving Crew in Bristol, VA. But the laws in VA were different at that time. You could get your certification at 16.
Now to get your NAEMT and State License in AL you must be 17. Tyler took his EMT class with Shoals Ambulance over the summer this year. Couldn't be prouder that my son would give up his summer to take a class and better himself. But his class finished before he could take his test, he had to be 18 to register.
So the Monday after he turned 18 he registered and took his test, and passed by only having to take the minimum of 70 questions. And yesterday he received his patch and his card. He has been a busy kid.
Scored outstanding on his ACT, a 31 or 32, can't remember exactly. That gave him a presidential scholarship to UAB. He gets everything paid for but room and board. Then last night he told me he also won the VFW scholarship for our county. It wasn't much, but every penny helps. But that also puts him in the running for the VFW state scholarship.
Also, in his spare time this summer, he completed a research project with mosquitoes, and how they are attracted to the CO2 we breath and how if we would filter our exhaled air, then we wouldn't attract mosquitoes. That scholarship is worth $250,000. Wouldn't that be nice.
He has been accepted to UAB and to UABs honors program. And he is applying for their early med school program.
He makes time for his girlfriend Gracie, and to work out everyday. Loves to hunt, fish and hike. Plus he has done observations hours at the hospital with Dr. Speyrer and Dr. Husainy. Goes to church without being told, and went shopping for the homeless and put together backpacks with food, water, toiletries and a bible to give to the homeless people he meets.
Couldn't be prouder of this young man, so very grateful that God brought him into my life.
I love you Tyman, may God Bless you in all your endeavors.
Dad
I obtained my EMT when I was 16 years old at Bristol Life Saving Crew in Bristol, VA. But the laws in VA were different at that time. You could get your certification at 16.
Now to get your NAEMT and State License in AL you must be 17. Tyler took his EMT class with Shoals Ambulance over the summer this year. Couldn't be prouder that my son would give up his summer to take a class and better himself. But his class finished before he could take his test, he had to be 18 to register.
So the Monday after he turned 18 he registered and took his test, and passed by only having to take the minimum of 70 questions. And yesterday he received his patch and his card. He has been a busy kid.
Scored outstanding on his ACT, a 31 or 32, can't remember exactly. That gave him a presidential scholarship to UAB. He gets everything paid for but room and board. Then last night he told me he also won the VFW scholarship for our county. It wasn't much, but every penny helps. But that also puts him in the running for the VFW state scholarship.
Also, in his spare time this summer, he completed a research project with mosquitoes, and how they are attracted to the CO2 we breath and how if we would filter our exhaled air, then we wouldn't attract mosquitoes. That scholarship is worth $250,000. Wouldn't that be nice.
He has been accepted to UAB and to UABs honors program. And he is applying for their early med school program.
He makes time for his girlfriend Gracie, and to work out everyday. Loves to hunt, fish and hike. Plus he has done observations hours at the hospital with Dr. Speyrer and Dr. Husainy. Goes to church without being told, and went shopping for the homeless and put together backpacks with food, water, toiletries and a bible to give to the homeless people he meets.
Couldn't be prouder of this young man, so very grateful that God brought him into my life.
I love you Tyman, may God Bless you in all your endeavors.
Dad
Monday, December 12, 2016
????
Today suck!! I miss my boys like crazy today. I am sitting here and I just want to cry. Trying to hold it together for another 8 hours until I can get home.
Mimi is upset, mad and confused. We have many questions that remain unanswered.
How can a God that loves you, put you through this kind of stress and turmoil?
How can a God that loves you not give you peace?
How can a God that loves you allow this kind of suffering to come to you?
How can a God that speaks of love for his only Son, send him to die? Does He love me more than His Son? And if so, He sure does have a funny way of showing it.
How can a God that loves you or anyone, allow you to be raped, abused, neglected, sick? How is that love?
There are so many questions, I can't name them all. My faith is being questioned. Why would a God that loves me, cause my family to break up and take away my grandsons?
As a child I had all of these questions as well. I suffered as a child, with my medical conditions. In and out of the hospital, surgery after surgery, not getting to play all the games the other kids did because I was either too tired or it wasn't allowed. Now as I progress and get older, those conditions, my heart defect, lead to other conditions. I now have liver cirrhosis, Type 1 diabetes, an insulin pump, working on my second pacemaker and take a hand full of medications every day and night.
Why does my God want to put this on me, or anyone for that matter? Why did he give Mimi glaucoma? Her sight was bad enough as it was, but now add that on top of it. I just can't see that a God that loves you would do this things to you.
I try to remain strong in my faith and believe that there is a master plan, and that His ways are greater than my ways. But some days the burden gets too great!!
Now, with this family feud going on, I don't get to see the two most precious boys I have ever seen. My grandson's William and Jayson have been taking away from me. Heather says we can't see them until her counselor says it is OK.
Mimi and I have never said a bad word against anyone around those boys. We have never punished them, nor laid a hand on them. If anything, we have spoiled the snot out of them and loved them more than anything in the world. My feelings are that Heather and Todd are not allowing us to see them just to punish us because of this feud. They may hate me and Mimi, but those boys love us, the last time I say them, they just came running and jumped in my arms and gave me big hugs. How can you deny them of that?
So today, I bear the burden of missing my boys. My soul aches for them, I just need to give them a hug and tell them I love them. Is that asking so much? I just want to be able to see them at Christmas and give them the presents I got for them, just like any grandparent would.
Just my questions, have I perceived Love wrong all these years? Is love really suffering and heartache? Why must we go through all this? Is there not good in this world anymore.
???
Shannon
Mimi is upset, mad and confused. We have many questions that remain unanswered.
How can a God that loves you, put you through this kind of stress and turmoil?
How can a God that loves you not give you peace?
How can a God that loves you allow this kind of suffering to come to you?
How can a God that speaks of love for his only Son, send him to die? Does He love me more than His Son? And if so, He sure does have a funny way of showing it.
How can a God that loves you or anyone, allow you to be raped, abused, neglected, sick? How is that love?
There are so many questions, I can't name them all. My faith is being questioned. Why would a God that loves me, cause my family to break up and take away my grandsons?
As a child I had all of these questions as well. I suffered as a child, with my medical conditions. In and out of the hospital, surgery after surgery, not getting to play all the games the other kids did because I was either too tired or it wasn't allowed. Now as I progress and get older, those conditions, my heart defect, lead to other conditions. I now have liver cirrhosis, Type 1 diabetes, an insulin pump, working on my second pacemaker and take a hand full of medications every day and night.
Why does my God want to put this on me, or anyone for that matter? Why did he give Mimi glaucoma? Her sight was bad enough as it was, but now add that on top of it. I just can't see that a God that loves you would do this things to you.
I try to remain strong in my faith and believe that there is a master plan, and that His ways are greater than my ways. But some days the burden gets too great!!
Now, with this family feud going on, I don't get to see the two most precious boys I have ever seen. My grandson's William and Jayson have been taking away from me. Heather says we can't see them until her counselor says it is OK.
Mimi and I have never said a bad word against anyone around those boys. We have never punished them, nor laid a hand on them. If anything, we have spoiled the snot out of them and loved them more than anything in the world. My feelings are that Heather and Todd are not allowing us to see them just to punish us because of this feud. They may hate me and Mimi, but those boys love us, the last time I say them, they just came running and jumped in my arms and gave me big hugs. How can you deny them of that?
So today, I bear the burden of missing my boys. My soul aches for them, I just need to give them a hug and tell them I love them. Is that asking so much? I just want to be able to see them at Christmas and give them the presents I got for them, just like any grandparent would.
Just my questions, have I perceived Love wrong all these years? Is love really suffering and heartache? Why must we go through all this? Is there not good in this world anymore.
???
Shannon
Sunday, December 11, 2016
Everything reminds me of you...
Jayson,
I miss my little best friend so much, today I took care of a 4 year old little boy who had fallen and cut his chin. He reminded me of you, he had the little blond hair just like you and he loved to talk.
He carried on such a conversation with me, just like the conversations that me and you would have. He made me smile, I told him that he would enjoy playing with you. He said that he would be Spiderman and you could be Superman. I showed him my Superman tattoo and he thought it was cool, just like you.
I miss you so much little man,
Poppa loves you to the moon and back!!
I miss my little best friend so much, today I took care of a 4 year old little boy who had fallen and cut his chin. He reminded me of you, he had the little blond hair just like you and he loved to talk.
He carried on such a conversation with me, just like the conversations that me and you would have. He made me smile, I told him that he would enjoy playing with you. He said that he would be Spiderman and you could be Superman. I showed him my Superman tattoo and he thought it was cool, just like you.
I miss you so much little man,
Poppa loves you to the moon and back!!
Sundays...
Well, its Sundays in the Emergency Department. The day started off with two critical patients coming in back to back in the same trauma bay. But we have a great crew, so we all worked together and got it done.
Only thing about being a nurse, is working the weekends and holidays. We work every other weekend. So we miss church every other weekend and every other Wednesday night. I really hate that too, because since January 2016 we have been attending Faith Church on Hwy 72. It is a very large church, but seems like a small one. Everyone is super friendly, but you meet someone new each week.
Pastor Steve Huskey is wonderful, when I had my cardiac cath procedure done back on January 25th, Pastor Steve called me and text me from his mission trip out of the country to check on me. We had only been going there for a few weeks. It was great to have a church praying for you in your time of need.
Since that time we have attended a Connect Group and this last semester we hosted our own Connect Group at our house. It is a great way to meet new people and get closer to everyone.
Sometimes in the ED we get some downtime on Sunday so we log on to www.igotofaith.com and watch the service live. It is a great ministry for when you can't make it to church.
ED is getting a little busy now. Got to go. Missing my boys today, praying for my Jayson and William. Poppa loves you to the moon and back boys.
Be Blessed,
Shannon
Only thing about being a nurse, is working the weekends and holidays. We work every other weekend. So we miss church every other weekend and every other Wednesday night. I really hate that too, because since January 2016 we have been attending Faith Church on Hwy 72. It is a very large church, but seems like a small one. Everyone is super friendly, but you meet someone new each week.
Pastor Steve Huskey is wonderful, when I had my cardiac cath procedure done back on January 25th, Pastor Steve called me and text me from his mission trip out of the country to check on me. We had only been going there for a few weeks. It was great to have a church praying for you in your time of need.
Since that time we have attended a Connect Group and this last semester we hosted our own Connect Group at our house. It is a great way to meet new people and get closer to everyone.
Sometimes in the ED we get some downtime on Sunday so we log on to www.igotofaith.com and watch the service live. It is a great ministry for when you can't make it to church.
ED is getting a little busy now. Got to go. Missing my boys today, praying for my Jayson and William. Poppa loves you to the moon and back boys.
Be Blessed,
Shannon
Saturday, December 10, 2016
Another day..
Just another day in the Emergency Dept. Took care of a little man with a newly diagnosed Type 1 diabetes. Made me realize why I love teaching about diabetes and how I can share my life experiences.
Feels good to help make a difference in someone's life.
Still haven't seen or heard from Heather. Makes me sad to not know what my boys are doing. I miss William and Jayson like crazy and it makes me sad not knowing if they are OK, or if they realize that Mimi and Poppa still love them and miss them.
I miss you J-man and William!!
Love you to the moon and back!!
Poppa
Feels good to help make a difference in someone's life.
Still haven't seen or heard from Heather. Makes me sad to not know what my boys are doing. I miss William and Jayson like crazy and it makes me sad not knowing if they are OK, or if they realize that Mimi and Poppa still love them and miss them.
I miss you J-man and William!!
Love you to the moon and back!!
Poppa
Friday, December 9, 2016
Just missing you,
Jayson and William,
Poppa and Mimi started back to work today for our work week. We normally get to see you before we start back, but this week was different. Your mom and dad wouldn't let us see you this week. Most weeks you would have come over after school on Monday or Tuesday to eat supper and spend some time with us. But that didn't happen this week.
We wanted to send you a note to school and have Uncle Tyler give it to William and he could read it to the both of you in private, just so you would know that Mimi and Poppa loved you. But unfortunately, Uncle Tyler didn't feel comfortable doing that, he said he didn't want to get in the middle of things.
So I started back my work week and I am missing you today. I have taken care of several children today, and each and everyone of them remind me of you guys and how much I miss you.
I am so sorry that we had an disagreement with your mom and dad. Don't ever think that it is your fault. Mimi and Poppa love you to the moon and back.
I have all of your Christmas presents wrapped for Christmas. I made you guys each a special blanket from Poppa, to keep you warm and remind you of my hugs and my love.
I hope you had a good day at school, I miss you so much!!!
Love you to the moon and back!!
Poppa
Poppa and Mimi started back to work today for our work week. We normally get to see you before we start back, but this week was different. Your mom and dad wouldn't let us see you this week. Most weeks you would have come over after school on Monday or Tuesday to eat supper and spend some time with us. But that didn't happen this week.
We wanted to send you a note to school and have Uncle Tyler give it to William and he could read it to the both of you in private, just so you would know that Mimi and Poppa loved you. But unfortunately, Uncle Tyler didn't feel comfortable doing that, he said he didn't want to get in the middle of things.
So I started back my work week and I am missing you today. I have taken care of several children today, and each and everyone of them remind me of you guys and how much I miss you.
I am so sorry that we had an disagreement with your mom and dad. Don't ever think that it is your fault. Mimi and Poppa love you to the moon and back.
I have all of your Christmas presents wrapped for Christmas. I made you guys each a special blanket from Poppa, to keep you warm and remind you of my hugs and my love.
I hope you had a good day at school, I miss you so much!!!
Love you to the moon and back!!
Poppa
Thursday, December 8, 2016
Just wanted to eat lunch...
To my grandson Jayson,
Yesterday, I was off of work and Mimi had a meeting. So I was home all by myself. I remember before you started school that me and you would spend the day watching Mickey Mouse club house or Paw Patrol and maybe going to McDonald's or Chick-fil-A. But now your in school, so those days are gone.
Recently your Mom has been mad at Mimi and I, that's OK. We still love her and we definitely still love you and William. But during all this, your mom and Dad have refused to let us see you. The last time I saw you was last Friday when your mom and dad supervised me as I played in the playground with you and William. I had a ton of fun and I loved your big hugs.
Anyway, I woke up this morning and wanted to come and eat lunch you. I sent your mom a text and asked if I could come see you today. She said No! She said that Mimi and I were not allowed to see you or your brother untill she discussed it with her counselor.
I am so sorry that you and William have been dragged into this. I miss my little buddy so bad. Your warm hugs make me smile and hearing you say "Poppa, your my best friend!", that just makes my heart warm!!
I don't know what your mom and dad tell you, but I want you to know that Poppa and Mimi love you very much!! I miss you so much that my heart breaks!!
I love you to the moon and back!!
Poppa
Sunday, November 27, 2016
Hello...
So, Hello...
This is me, Shannon T. Nash. I have never blogged before but sounds like a good outlet to express my feelings. Just hope that no one reads it.
I am married to my wonderful bride, Lynn S. Nash. We have 3 children, Heather, Lisa and Tyler. Heather has two boys, William and Jayson, and Lisa has a girl, Kaliegh. We also have 2 dogs, Isaac and Izzy, they miniature schnauzers.
I am a Registered Nurse with an Emergency Medical background. I have worked in emergency medicine for the last 25 or so years. I began my career as an EMT back in 1988. I was also a flight nurse for Air Evac Lifeteam from 1999 to 2011, but more on that later.
I currently work as a RN in a Level 2 regional Emergency Room in Northwest Alabama. My wife is also an RN with as many years of experience and works beside me on the same shift daily. We are best friends and enjoy every minute of our time together.
Enough for my first post.
Be Blessed!
Shannon
Tuesday, November 22, 2016
The Christmas Arguement!!!
So today we had an argument with our oldest daughter Heather. It was all over Christmas!! Imagine that!!
My wife's and my schedule for the holiday season came out recently. The only day that we are off during the holiday season is Dec 24th, and Tyler is gone to his dad's until the afternoon of the 24th. So it only made sense for us to have our Christmas on Dec 24th evening.
Lynn told Heather that we were having Christmas at our house on the 24th, that evening. That didn't sit well with Heather. She had already made plans to having Christmas eve with her in-laws, who are off all week and could have their Christmas at any time.
Heather would not budge, we asked her to ask the in laws if they would change their Christmas to Christmas day so we could see Heather and the boys. But Heather was so frustrated and mad that Lynn didn't ask her, she just told her when we were doing our Christmas, that she refused to ask anyone to change. She said that she was not going to be at our house Christmas eve evening, she said they could come over for lunch but not that night. What I believe that she never heard, was that Tyler was not going to be there at lunch time.
Hence the argument began!! Lynn was mad, and rightly so. Her daughter was choosing to have Christmas with the in laws and not coming to see us. My wife got very upset, because we always have to change our plans due to the in laws, she lost her temper and posted some nasty comments on Facebook.
Now, I have an opinion about Facebook, if you don't like what you read or see, then move on!! There is a scroll button for a reason. There is also a un-friend button if someone really offends you and you don't want to see that anymore. But one thing, it is a public open forum to talk about anything you want, but just like TV, if you don't like what you see, change the channel!!
No my wife did make some nasty comments, probably not the nicest thing, but she was upset. And Heather and the in laws read the comments and the war began.
Needless to say, Heather is not speaking to us! No one is coming to Thanksgiving or Tyler's birthday party and we do not get to see the boys anymore!!! Which breaks my heart.
But sadly, this all could have been resolved if our family would have just chosen us! We have been nurses for 25 years, and they know we can only do holidays on one day, what ever our schedule is. Just like the movie says..."Chose me, Pick me!!"
That is all we wanted.
Shannon
My wife's and my schedule for the holiday season came out recently. The only day that we are off during the holiday season is Dec 24th, and Tyler is gone to his dad's until the afternoon of the 24th. So it only made sense for us to have our Christmas on Dec 24th evening.
Lynn told Heather that we were having Christmas at our house on the 24th, that evening. That didn't sit well with Heather. She had already made plans to having Christmas eve with her in-laws, who are off all week and could have their Christmas at any time.
Heather would not budge, we asked her to ask the in laws if they would change their Christmas to Christmas day so we could see Heather and the boys. But Heather was so frustrated and mad that Lynn didn't ask her, she just told her when we were doing our Christmas, that she refused to ask anyone to change. She said that she was not going to be at our house Christmas eve evening, she said they could come over for lunch but not that night. What I believe that she never heard, was that Tyler was not going to be there at lunch time.
Hence the argument began!! Lynn was mad, and rightly so. Her daughter was choosing to have Christmas with the in laws and not coming to see us. My wife got very upset, because we always have to change our plans due to the in laws, she lost her temper and posted some nasty comments on Facebook.
Now, I have an opinion about Facebook, if you don't like what you read or see, then move on!! There is a scroll button for a reason. There is also a un-friend button if someone really offends you and you don't want to see that anymore. But one thing, it is a public open forum to talk about anything you want, but just like TV, if you don't like what you see, change the channel!!
No my wife did make some nasty comments, probably not the nicest thing, but she was upset. And Heather and the in laws read the comments and the war began.
Needless to say, Heather is not speaking to us! No one is coming to Thanksgiving or Tyler's birthday party and we do not get to see the boys anymore!!! Which breaks my heart.
But sadly, this all could have been resolved if our family would have just chosen us! We have been nurses for 25 years, and they know we can only do holidays on one day, what ever our schedule is. Just like the movie says..."Chose me, Pick me!!"
That is all we wanted.
Shannon
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